I understand them. It starts with looking at the nutrition labels, then looking at the fat on nutrition labels, and so on. It starts from just cutting out desert, then sugar, then meat, then lunch then you’ll be living on an all vegetable diet. You can’t sleep, you can’t wake up, you can do what you used to love, and the overwhelming guilt murders you inside. You start to become obsessed with the feeling of being hungry; you become obsessed with what you consume.
I was this way once upon a time, and I ate less than 200 calories a day. I am not going to get into stats and numbers, because sure, there’s million of people have it worse than you, but that doesn’t make your situation any less. Cancer, paralytic, MS and broken bones are a absolutely horrible and tear jerking condition, but as my role model, Shane Koyczan, said:
“so broken heart strings bled the blues
as we tried to empty ourselves
so we would feel nothing
don’t tell me that hurts less than a broken bone
that an ingrown life
is something surgeons can cut away
that there’s no way for it to metastasize
it does”
Eating disorders, Depression, Mental illness, and self harm are just a few of the most common disorders in youth. A saddening amount do not understand the seriousness of these conditions. Eating disorders are not a fashion trend, Depression is not breaking up with your boyfriend of two weeks, self harm is not for attention and mental illness does not mean your psychotic. They are apart of the fairytale I like to call life. Once upon a time I was the little girl with blue lips from a popsicle, swinging on the swings with my grandma, kissing and hugging everyone I see because I believed no one could do me harm. I remember my dad saying to me last year “It was when you were 10 was when you changed, I thought you didn’t like me.” and then was when I encountered my first cut upon my wrist. That made me sob because these things don’t just affect you, they affect everyone around you. So no, it is not to be taken lightly, That it is just something you can get over. That depression can we cured by any of the contents in a first aid-kit. So don’t tell me words will never hurt me, because of course they did. It is okay to hurt. Please don’t ever feel guilty for hurting. These things happen for a reason, and there is a reason why you are here today. My reason to let youth know they are not, nay, never alone. A lot of people ask me if I could change anything about my past, what would it be? and my answer is always “Nothing, nothing at all.”
Sincerely,
✰ Dani Lafleur ✰












Greetings! My name is Dani LaFleur and I am currently Miss Teen Vancouver in the running for Miss Teen Canada - World. I own two beautiful horses named Fancy and Lark, who I talk about my day, tell my secrets and competitively show jump. Music is my life; The Rolling Stones, The Sex Pistols, The Beatles, The Who and Nirvana wake me up in the early mornings. Knowing those legends shared their talent with the world gives me hope. After I over came severe cyber bullying, I have devoted my life to helping youth who experienced similar situations that I have over come. My goal is conduct workshops and speeches in school environments. I am ambitious, devoted and confident, and I will not stop until my goal is reached. I can't do this on my own, so I appreciate your support.
Sincerely, ✰ Dani Lafleur ✰
PS. Make sure to check out my website: MTVWDaniLaFleur.webs.com
